Happy/Sad

The older I get, the more I am finding that I am both happy and sad at the same time far too often.  Maybe, my father's passing has heightened this awareness in me, as I am both happy that he is home and free of the pain that he was suffering from, but also lamenting that he is gone from me here and now.  Either way my heart is full.  It is full of emotion - love, joy, pain, hurt, loss, and grace.  I get a little of this sense when I finish a book series.  As I wrapped up The SYLO Chronicles, I am happy to have read the story, but sad that I end my relationship with characters whom I have grown fond of.  I think it is why I love reading so very much.  Authors that create genuine, authentic, caring characters are magicians.  To me, that is beauty.  I know that the story is fiction...yet, I allow myself to revert back to childhood days; I let myself IMAGINE.  In doing so, I am so very often swept away into a world for a time, and my sincere hope is that I learn deeply and grow richly, from my experience there.  After reading this trilogy I desire two things: I want to passionate do my part to transform the world so that I indeed, leave it better than I found it, and as my heart continue to heal from the loss of my father, I want to be incredibly intentional about investing in the lives of those whom i care deeply about. Love you friends.